When I think about my life back then and what it was like living with double vision and all the other unhealthy ways I was living, I'm certainly glad to be where I am today! I may not have double vision anymore (or any lasting eye issues from it) but I do know my MS is different 5 years later. I have a little more numbness in my lower legs. My muscles on my right side still have repaired fully from my last attack so who knows if this is the new me in that regard. And my fatigue level is just... different. A little more pronounced?
But ultimately, I feel far healthier regardless! I feel physically well overall and maybe thats because I have been able to put myself first in my life and stop when I need to and ask for help when I should. Okay, not always, but in a much more balanced way now. I guess its just a part of acceptance of my disease in my body and that it's here to stay. I could resent it, but I choose to embrace it instead. It's a much happier life that way for me.