2007-05-01 12:55:51
Well, it's one week today until I will forever change the non-medicating way I've been living with my MS. On the one hand, I'm feeling really positive and good about doing something about my disease. Whether it's being fully admitted to this clinical trial (I'm assuming I meet all the criteria at this point), or moving to a current day therapy I'm happier making a dent in what the disease is doing in me. I may not be able to predict, control or change what "it's" doing but I sure as hell want to disrupt it as much as I can! On the other hand, I have one last week to live with only the symptoms of my MS (few and far between these days) and not any potential side effects of medication. I feel like I should be taking these last days of med free life for granted as they aren't likely to happen again considering I can't hide from my MRI results. Nor would be doing myself any favours in not doing medication as I'm going to have to live with my MS for the rest of my life!